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"I tell myself I deserve more
but I still always come back
to you. I could make a living
off of all the advice I’ve given
to others but have never
followed myself. I could make
myself a home out of every
apology I’ve given to you
when really you were the one
who should have sighed
I’m sorry’s while my heart
was trying to figure out how
this could all be worth it.
I’m not in pain but I’m not
in perfect health either.
I’m not exhausted but I am
tired of constantly having to
remind you of things I said
when I thought you were
listening. I tell myself
I deserve more but still
I always go back to you.
And I’m just trying to figure out
why it is that I never can learn
from my own manifest mistakes."– CB (via mostlyfiction)
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"
“Did you ever love me?”
“Are you ever going to come back home?”
“You’re in love with someone else, aren’t you?”
“How long do I have to pretend that I’m over you?”
“Can we start over?”
“How could you just leave me like that?”
“Does she treat you better than I did?”
“Can you please come over?”
“Did you really mean it when you said forever?”
“When will we see each other again?”
"– “Questions I’ll never have the courage to ask you,” - Colleen Brown (via mostlyfiction)
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"My father tells me that I should marry someone who is my best friend, someone who has always been there and who will always be. As he takes a sip of coffee, I start thinking about everyone who never left me. He tells me that true love or any kind of love for that matter is not about perfection but about dedication and honesty. My mother comes into the kitchen and starts another pot of coffee. I can still see the love between them by the way they look at one another, and for my entire life I always knew that’s how I wanted to be with someone, one day. My father tells me that when he found my mother, and she makes sure I know that she found him first, that he didn’t care about anything or anyone else. That when their lips first met he knew that she was worth the wait and former heartbreaks. He tells me to never settle, to never stay because I am comfortable. He says to keep looking because even if it takes years it’s better to keep searching than to stay with someone just for the sake of my own loneliness. My mother kisses my father before going back into bed and before he joins her, he looks at me in my eyes and tells me to never doubt myself and to never believe that I don’t deserve the best when it comes to true love."– “When I asked my father when it would be my turn to fall in love,” - Colleen Brown (via mostlyfiction)
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"let’s just pretend that we used be in love"
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yesjustanotherbloggeruniverse:
Pretend.
